Yesterday was your birthday - my first without you. I wish you could be here to see them growing, here to help me find my way along this road, here so we could talk and laugh, so I could hear your voice and see you smile. There is so much more I want to ask you.
Having said this, just knowing you are free of pain and sadness, knowing that you are happy, safe and whole, makes my loss a bit more bearable. I know that you are here with us - watching us and loving us, smiling and laughing. There are reminders all around me. The birds and flowers you love so much, that stepping stone, your books, the way she dances - all of these are gifts from you and reassure me of your presence. I love you so much, Mama. Thank you for loving me.